Archive for May, 2009

An attitude of gratitude

Wednesday, May 20th, 2009

I am so happy and excited today. The sun is shining, and there is a breeze blowing. Summer in Minnesota is arriving. I love summer in Minnesota and I am pleased that it is here. I am grateful for the sun, I am grateful for my house that has the wonderful windows that has that sun splotch that comes in that I can sit in and be warmed by the sun, it is such a relaxing and wonderful feeling.
I am grateful for all the support I have. Yesterday was a tough day, my wife and friends where there to remind me that all days are not hard, and that even news that I may not have wanted sometimes is for the best.
I am grateful for my car that brought me to work, and the fact that it still has gas in the tank. It was so nice not having to fill the car up with gas before coming to work.
I am grateful for the cafe where I just made a salad for my lunch, it is so nice that it is here and I do not have to go searching for lunch.
I am happy that I have some challenging projects to work on today.
But most of all I am happy and grateful for being able to work on my blog and website today. I really like how this is starting to turn out and I am grateful for the opportunity to put this out in the internet.

Life’s little tests

Tuesday, May 19th, 2009

2 weeks ago I applied for a new position at my work. The interview went really well. I thought I had a really good chance at getting the job. I did have a really good chance at getting the job.
I didn’t get the job.

I went to the interview and I felt good about it. I let my concerns go, and I felt like I had the job. I acted like I had a new job and I felt being more satisfied in what I am doing.

Not that my current position is bad in any way. I fix pc’s and support applications and do all kind of important things. There is always something to do. But the work is not routine, but comfortable. I want to expand a little bit.

This potential may have given me an option to expand, on the other hand it may not have.

When I got the news today that I was not selected, I was disappointed. I felt poorly. I have been flowing energy so well recently, doing everything so right, I wondered why this did not work out.
It should have worked out.

But I have often noticed that when I am really connected and flowing energy, shortly after I get really “inspired” something comes up to smack me down.
The incident can try and make me depressed, and sometimes it has worked.
But this time it hasn’t.

I know something has shifted and my opportunity is still coming. I feel that this job was not what was right for me, and that this is not a blow but one of life’s little tests. A little “Hi There” from the universe, checking to see if I am really serious about being connected to the flow to the source.

I am really serious about being connected to the source. I am not letting this break my stride. I know deep inside, that something is coming my way and the right option will be available. This position was a 2 year commitment which may have interfered with what is coming.

What was really hurt here was merely my ego which does not like rejection. Me, myself, it really does not matter. There is nothing to reject or accept. It is just a question of whether this job was to limiting for what I have flowing to me.

So I stay focused in the moment, finding the joy I can in this time and doing the best I can at what I do.

Inspired action

Monday, May 18th, 2009

Inspired action is the idea running through my head all day.

I take action, I take a lot of actions.  Every day I do things, I move, I do.

But most of it means nothing.  How many actions do I undertake that I feel passionate about, that I am driven to do, that I don’t know if I can’t not do?

Not that many.  Most things are pretty basic.  Brushing my teeth, it is a basic action, probably nothing to really feel passionate about, but I know it needs to be done.

Writing this post.  It is a more complex action, but ideas have been pounding on my all day.

I have been wanting to type, to explore concepts, to get it out.  But I have had other actions that pre-empted it.  I have had work.  I had to troubleshoot a failed installation today.  I spent the afternoon reading configuration files, uninstaling and reinstalling, talking to the vendor and blah.

But working on this website is not something I could not choose to do tonight.  I don’t know if I could really sleep without getting one post out.  I am inspired, I am driven.

I am not really being clear in this post.  The ideas are still kinda muddy and this is sorta a rough draft as I get the information pulled together.

When we want something to manifest we need to set the intent.  Small things come easy and just appear.

But the universe is a conspiracy, it conspires to give us exactly what we want at exactly the right time.  The universe goes out of it’s way to set things up for us to get what we want.

If we want a Big Mac, that is pretty simple,  most likely we will notice a McDonalds, or all the McDonalds we pass by.  Perhaps we will take a wrong turn, or have an incident that causes us to drive past a McDonalds.

There are some things that we try to manifest that we can do ourselves, like getting a Big Mac.  The universe just conspires to give us an opportunity.

However somethings we really can’t do by ourselves, but someone else can.  We need to be brought together so synergy can work. We need to open the door that is offered.

How do we know which doors to open, well it is inspired action.  If we feel inspired to do something, reach out of our comfort zone, take a chance, the universe will work through that moment.

If we don’t take the action, don’t put the skin in the game, don’t follow through we can’t make the connection that allows our manifestation to come true.

This does not mean we have to take a chance or a risk, but I think it means we need to leave our comfort zones.

This is stuff still perculating from the videos I watch on Matthew Ferry’s website

http://www.matthewferry.com/free.htm last night.

He goes into more detail about techniques and sychronicity.

The central point is that we are co-creators of our experiences, and everyone else is also.  The experience is what we want, and to get it we have to co-create with others.  We have to accept others, accept the help they offer, and take the actions that we feel inspired to take, the actions we feel emotional about, the actions that we feel we just can’t not take.

Of course some people may never feel inspired, and that is ok, you can start with vague interest.  I know a lot of people are not really in touch with their emotions, until recently (and still somewhat), I am one of them.

Sometimes you get to a point where you can’t work up inspiration because you are so emotionally deadened.  Then start with interest, as you start to allow the energy to flow, passion and inspiration will start to flow also.

Authentically connect

Monday, May 18th, 2009

Last night I watched a short series of videos that had a profound affect on me.

It did not start there, the videos were actually a result of work that I am doing with my friends Diane and Loren Mickelson.  They recently came up with a new work to help one connect with one’s authenticate self. Late last week they took me through this process.  Boom, I have the need to work on this web site.

I have been putting this off for a long time.  The other website was nice, it had a lot of information and over all I was pretty happy with it.

Starting over and re-creating the website seemed so overwhelming.  It is challenging, but it is a task I am up to.  The work I am doing led me to the tools to make the website easier, better, and brigher than before.

I was working on the website and I was lead to do some research.  I did not find what I was looking for, the site I am looking for, I will find that today.

But I bumped into another site I did not know existed.  This site will appear on my link section soon.

It was for a life coach named Matthew Ferry.  He really gets it.  I have heard many motivational speakers, and I have gone to many seminars.  Matthew Ferry really inspired me.  I was thinking about it all night and this morning.

On his website he has several free videos linked off of YouTube.   The information is something many people know, maybe everyone knows, but it is something that just clicked for me.

Our job is to connect with people.  We are not islands onto ourselves, but we are all connected and all worthy of being connected with.

We should offer help, within our means and skills, to those we come in contact with.  This inspires the synergy that returns it to us.

He did not put it in those terms. His were much more pratical, and action oriented.

It is a perfect mesh between the work I am doing with the Mickelsons (which I highly recommend) and the videos I feel like a boulder was dropped on my head.

So I have a new favorite question, and possibly a new theme for my site.

How can I help you today?