Staff of Light

“What kind of world do you want?” is a lyric that is floating through my head this afternoon. It is from a song by Five for Fighting. I think it is called “World”.
In the song a person gets a new world kit from Acme supply and gets to design it anyway they choose.

“Think anything” the song implores. That is so true. What we turn our attention to, what we think, shapes the world we live in.

We get to choose what sort of world we want to live in. It is up to us. However we need to actively choose what we want to create. We have to focus our thoughts on what type of world we want to create.

When we don’t focus our thoughts, we create by habit, we create by example of what is around us, and we give away all of our power.

What type of world do I choose to live in.

I have bills, many, many bills. I always seem to be paying bills. After I pay the bills there is very little money left over.
I can view this as never having enough, always struggling to pay my bills, and always scraping by.

I can also view this as being grateful that I always have just enough money to cover my bills, and being grateful for the abundance provided for me.

Both sets of statements are valid, both sets reflect reality. I choose to look at it from the second, more positive way. It makes me feel better, it aligns me with the source better, and it helps abundance flow.

I choose to live in a world of abundance, peace, joy, and forgiveness. I choose to practice gratitude and shift my perspective to view situations from as positive view as I can.

That is the type of world I want, that I choose.

I have brilliant ideas. I have creative thoughts. I get really jazzed up and ready to implement them.
I am excited, ready to create. I run to my computer and sit down ready to bring my ideas forth.

Then my ideas flee. I am left remembering pieces but not knowing where to start or what to do.
I loose the big picture.

My problem is that I want to start with the big steps. I want to jump in and complete the project. I want to do it all.
But I can’t do it all, not right away, not from the beginning. I have to begin somewhere.

I have to start with a small step. Then I have to take another small step.
I think what I need to do is take my ideas and write them down!
Then I need to determine how to start, and make a plan.

Then I just need to work the plan.

You see, being inspired is great, feeling passionate about something is vital. However being inspired, being passionate, does not mean I can just jump in and complete the project, it is not a pass to having something done. Instead I think it is what allows the work to flow, and gives the drive to complete projects. But the ground work still needs to be done.

So even though I am vibrating with excitement and I want to get straight to the writing, I am instead taking a step back, and I am laying out the plan.

The action is still inspired, and I know that the final product is going to be perfect, but today, I am just starting.

I am starting with a plan.

I know that this site looks a bit different today. I upgraded to the new version of WordPress and my favorite theme stopped working correctly.

I tried to fix it, but I was not able to figure it out, yet. I will, it just may take me a little longer.
Meanwhile I have changed the theme to this one, with the rocks at the top. It is nice, but not the same.

Flexibility and acceptance. I choose to accept that the theme broke when I upgraded. I am not spending time in questions as to why did it happen, or how could they have done this to me. I realize it is done, and something needs to be fixed.
I looked at the code for a few moments and I realized that it was going to take me a longer time to figure out how to fix it.

So I went and found a theme that works that is nice. Eventually, after we are moved I will fix it.

But right now I am flexible.

Sure this may seem to be something minor and small. A broken theme is not something to ruin my whole day. I can fix it, I can move beyond this.
It occurs to me that this is an example of just about everything. By accepting what is, I am able to take action, fix the issue and move on.

When I sit and wonder why did it happen and lament that things went wrong I get stuck, and the process of “fixing” the situation is not as pleasant.

I have found that I prefer just to accept the situation, and take care of it, from love and joy, instead of from fear and guilt.

When the world comes crashing down around me, and I have multiple small problems like this pile on me, it can be much harder to do.
But I am starting to realize each situation is just a small issue that I need to approach with joy and acceptance.

When I accept situations and don’t fight against them, I invite the solution into my experience, I invite more of what I want to experience into my situation.
I love changing things up, I love going with the flow, and I am excited to see what is being brought to me next.

Last week we bought a new house. That endeavor soaked up my time last week. We got this new house and it needed to be cleaned from top to bottom.
It is a good house, very solid. However it has been empty for a while, and there were bugs and dirt and stuff that needed to be cleaned.
There was also a substantial amount of wallpaper that needed to be removed.

So last week, and over the weekend, we cleaned the house, we stripped the wallpaper, we sanded the floors (hard wood), and we started to paint the walls.

Today we are completing painting the rooms inside and shining the place up. It looks like a different house. We put effort into it. Our parents came and helped, our friends came and helped, and we have been putting energy into getting it into good shape.

There are a lot of people doing a lot of things to make this project happen.

When we are done, the house is going to look very nice, and be wonderful, but there will still be more to do. That’s ok, there is always more to do, but it will still be wonderful.

On Wed. we are going to start moving our stuff in. We have a lot of stuff, and we get to decide where it goes, and if we want to include it in the new house.

As we are working on this and getting things moved, it occurs to me that this is very metaphorical for what is going on in my life right now.

I am working on cleaning out my excuses that hold me back. I am working on discovering what works for me and what brings me true joy and fulfillment. There are a lot of people helping me, and it takes a lot of energy.
Just cleaning out the old outdated belief systems are a big effort. Getting everything ready for the new patterns.
It’s an amazing experience.

But it all takes energy and effort to reach a higher energy level. Energy has to be put into the system to rise it up.
It is easy to look at a material project and put energy into it, like cleaning a house or car. I find is harder to put the same amount of energy into maintaining my thoughts or personal development. It takes effort, it takes inspired effort.

I have been putting in that effort this month, I have not been perfect, I may not have even been able to direct my thoughts 30% of the time yet, but it does make a difference, and I think it is worth the effort and time.

It can be amazing.

However finding the time to meditate is challenging, but it is a worth while challenge.

The big news today is the solar eclipse that is happening today and tomorrow (mostly tomorrow Wed. July 22nd).

What does the eclipse mean.
One of my teachers, Kathryn Harwig says, ” This has been a month of three eclipses. Today’s, a solar eclipse, is said to be the most powerful in many years. I asked the Light Collective what we needed to know about that. They said, “The sun is your source of power. When it is obstructed, even for a few minutes, you will feel slightly weaker.”

The Sun is the source of our power, the source of our energy. Having it obstructed is somewhat like cutting off our flow of power.
Anyone who lives in the North can understand this, we call it SAD Seasonal Affective Disorder. In the grey of winter people can feel powerless, depressed, and have no energy.

It’s true, sometimes winter drags on, and it is a fight to stay happy and active.

When an eclipse happens it is even more significant than clouds blocking the sun. For a few moments energy is not flowing to the earth, it is being blocked.

Some people feel that in this environment you should conserve your energy, hoard it, let yourself meditate and become inactive.
However this eclipse is going to be short lived. We live in abundance, we do not need to hoard energy.

I do agree it would be good to meditate, but I think a moving meditation would be great, revel in your power, your ability to be joyful and perfect, revel in your own innate being.

Dance, walk, run, yoga, Tai Chi, move and be happy

The key, I am told is total acceptance of what is.
Accept what you have created without reservation, and use this moment, with no regrets, to powerfully create.

My past experiences have taught me things, they have allowed me to develop opinions and preferences.

Those preferences help me determine what type of things I want to manifest. I get that.

However, if I totally accept how things are, right now, without reservation, find joy in my moment how things are, where is the impetus to change. Why strive for something better if you find joy in the moment.
How can I make effective changes, if I declare each moment perfect?

It’s really hard. Things are not perfect. I am not happy where I am at this very moment. I am not satisfied with the situation I have manifested. But at the same time I am.
I am pleased with where I am at this very moment. I have learned many valuable things in my experiences, I have been prepared for what is to come, and what has happened.
I have developed preferences, and refined what I want to attract into my experience.

Right now, in this moment I am in a wonderful place and everything is flowing to me. Any resistance I have to that thought is a result of my ego comparing it to something and trying to make waves.

Sometimes it succeeds. But when I step back and I witness, I know that I have created this moment, and this moment hold vital lessons for me to learn. I know I can take this moment and connect with the source and attract anything I desire into my experience.

That brings me back to my question. If I am perfectly content in this moment, why would I desire to attract anything different?

Which leads me to another question, what is it that I want to attract?

I don’t really have an answer, these are questions I have been contemplating much of the year.

However I am starting to realize that the actions you take in the moment, when you are totally accepting the moment you are in, and not spending time judging it, or comparing it to some ideal, those actions come from an inspired place. When you are clear it is easier to hear the inner voice and to feel the inspiration burst forth, to know what to do no matter how wacky it sounds.

I have a company that sells novelty items. We sell lots of small ticket key chains and key chain type items.
I am inspired, right now, to group together a series of different types and list them on ebay. I am not getting buy in on this from the people I work with. They don’t understand it.
It is not currently done, and they don’t think people would be interested in it. I think it would be great, and I am excited about it, and I am inspired about it.

But right now it is not getting done, and I am chafing inside. Why is it not getting done?
Because we have excuses.
It has not been done before
It is to hard
I don’t know how to do it
I don’t have time to do it
It is to risky

So I look and I say, it hasn’t been done before, but does it really hurt to try?
I have the picture in my head, I can work with people and make it happen
We can find time, it will not take long, just schedule time
It’s risky, what’s the real risk? -Ebay listing fees? I can tolerate the risk

So I feel inspired by this thought, in this moment, and I am going to make it happen – tomorrow.
The product is not actually here today, and I am not sure what is left, but it is returning today, so once I get it, I am going to do this.

So maybe that is my answer, when you accept where you are, you can hear your inner voice, the source better, and you are inspired in what actions to take.
You need to have a vision, and know what experiences you want to bring forth in your life, and inspiration may take it from there.

I live in a world of excuses. I am a master of making excuses. I thought I had worked out most of my excuse making habits, but I still have excuses.

The excuses I am becoming aware of are the big excuses.
What is an excuse? An excuse is a habitual thought that supports your premise/resolve/decision to or not to do something.
In the last several years I have put on a lot of weight. Actually, I don’t know when it happened, it seems like I have been overweight for a long time.

This year I grew tired of being over weight, I grew tired of my physical condition limiting me.
I said I was going to regain a better weight baseline.
However I had many excuses to over come.
It will take a long time to loose the weight.
It will be really hard to loose the weight.
I am to busy to cook food, it is to hard to find the right foods.
I just don’t know what to eat.

I had these excuses pounding on me, preventing me from making changes.
In March I just decided that the excuses don’t matter. I was going to make a change.
I made a total change in my diet, and I have lost 40 pounds since March.
It is taking time, but it is not taking that long.
In fact it is only taking a moment. Each moment I make a good choice, I am a moment closer to my goal.
The moments have added up, and I am much happier and feel much better now.

Was it hard? It was not hard, it was not easy. I had to make new food choices. Broccoli became my new snack of choice. But I found I actually like Broccoli and it fills me up when I am hungry.

I hit a moment where I was fed up, I was ready to make a change. I was inspired to make a change, and I put energy into making the change. The change is made and I am happier for it.

My excuses that were limiting me, and have been for several years really were not valid. But I needed to be ready. But I was ready, and I made the change.

This website is something I am insipired to do, that I have also been putting off and making excuses for.
But I have done it. Post by post, I am creating the website and the content and building it up.
It feels good.

There are other areas I am still working on, things that still frusterate me. But I think when the timing is right, when the inspiration hits, I will make the change in the moment that will resolve the issues.
But for now, I strive to take joy in the moment, learn everything I can in the moment, and stay centered.

It does not awlays work, but it is getting easier. Each time I stay centered, or redirect my thoughts, is one more step towards building a new supporting habit, and raising my vibrational rate.
Each moment, Now, I have a choice, I am remembering that.

I have been reading Dr. Wayne Dyer’s new book Excuses Begone!. A lot of what I am contemplating in that post comes right from there. It is worth checking out.

I arrived in LA and got checked into the hotel. It was mid afternoon and I wanted to explore. I quickly took off and headed towards Hollywood and I drove down Sunset all the way to the ocean.
I reached the ocean and drove along it. Soon I came to Santa Monica. It was getting “later”, around 6 pm and I was hungry. I thought I would get a book, some dinner and then go and sit on the beach and watch the sunset.

I got myself a book, I had some dinner and I arrived on the beach just about sunset.

It was a wonderful day, and I was feeling brave. I took off my shoes and socks and stood barefoot in the sand. I rarely go barefoot, and I have not been barefoot outside in a long time. But I did, and it felt good. I walked along the line of the water, just outside the tide line.
When the ocean receded, I stepped onto the wet sand, then stepped out as the water came back.

Slowly I became more brave. I started to allow the very tips of my toes to get wet when the waves rolled in. Soon I was actually wading a little, walking along and letting the water lap up to my ankles.

I stopped and turned and faced west, watching the sun disappear behind some hills. I was deeply rooted in the sand. The water was consistently swirling around my ankles, and I was feeling connected.

I was feeling good, centered, and at one with the ocean and the beach.

I stepped back, just out of the tide line to watch the sun set, and just appreciate the ocean, the environment.
I was back fairly far, and there was dry sand between me and the waves. Then a strong wave came in and I watched it come towards me, just not quite reaching my feet, stopping an inch away.
I said Ha-Ha, Not quite powerful enough there, you missed me. The next wave came in, and it was father away again. I asked if that is all it got.
Suddenly a really big way came in and flooded up and went over my knees and got my shorts wet. It was cold.
I said, “ok, you got me”. The next wave, several actually, came in and just gently lapped over my feet, caressing my ankles very gently.

I felt like I was communing with the ocean, like it was responding to me and my expectations of it. It was part of me at that moment.

We have so much power and ability. So much potential, and when we are in the right space, with the right perspective, miracles occur all around.
This I declare as a personal miracle, something that speaks to me, and opens my eyes.

I have just returned from my Epic trip out west and back. I drove about 4000 miles in the last 14 days. It really was an epic trip.

I had forgotten and lost touch with how beautiful and majestic the western United States truly is. As I drove “This land is your land” kept playing through my head, and I really felt it. It was incredible.

I have some stories and insights I am going to share, and I will be working on those for the next several days.

However I just wanted to make a quite post that I have returned.

Also, I am hosting a Intuitive circle in Oakdale, MN on July 29th.