Staff of Light

Overwhelm is a place that everyone knows well. I certainly know it well. I seem to be spending quite a bit of time there.
I have so much to do. I have many demands on my time, and I am not getting everything done. In fact it seems like the more things pile up, the less effective I am.

Even things I enjoy doing become problematic. I know I have other things I should be attending to. I know I have to get stuff done. But I end up dithering and not getting stuff done.
I make lists, I prioritize, I send emails, I talk to people, I make excuses for not getting things done. But I don’t get things done.

Sometimes it is like that. We have so many things to do, some many demands that we just get overwhelmed and kinda fall apart.
It seems the world is more and more like that some days.

I look at GTD (Get Things Done) methods, I read ways to improve my focus. I know what to do.
But it is hard to do it.

Many of the things that I eventually get done are because of fear. I finish things because I fear what will happen if I don’t. Like Taxes. Last week was tax week, I have always had a fear of taxes ever since I allowed myself to have a negative experience with an accountant. I have not reclaimed my power, and taxes scare me.
I realize I need to reclaim my power, and do taxes from a space of love, and it is something I am working on. But right now they are done due to fear of what would happen if I don’t do them.

Somewhere the rubber meets the road and we have to take care of outstanding stuff. It just needs to get done.

This is where tools come in.
To deal, I make lists
I first make a list of what I need to do personally.
Then I make a list of what I can ask for help with.
I take the list of stuff I can ask for help with and send it to the universe with love.
Then I take the list of what I need to do personally, and try and do those tasks with love, while paying attention for the help I have asked for.

It is important to pay attention for the help to arrive and to accept the help when it does arrive.

Then slowly I work on my list.
What I learn is interesting.
I learn what are priorities for me. What do I want to do, what will I make time for.
As I learn what I want to do, what I make time for, what I do first, I have a little more clue on what I enjoy, what makes my heart sing, and where my bliss lies.